What I’ve learned

What I learned is there are few you can trust. What I’ve learned is that actions do not always tell you what a person truly feels. I’ve learned to question what I consider fact by questioning action and demand answer. But, I’ve also learned that spoken words do not always tell you what a person truly feels. And that words sometimes reveal and sometimes don’t as well as action. 

f dat. :P

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The world can be such an ugly place. 1 in 4 women are abused by the age of 18. What is up with that statistic? That’s just so wrong! It makes me wonder when people say that it wasn’t the victim’s fault, is it the perpetrator’s? Most of the time they have been victims too. So that makes me wonder, where did it start? Is it the result of an addiction someone has? Feeling lonely, or a need for power? Momentarily psychosis? Anger problems? Original sin? How do these things happen?? O.O It’s really depressing.

On a brighter note, we ultimately choose who we want to be!! 

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It was so cute how excited I was about Biology. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice going into Philosophy. I do love Philosophy a lot too though. So eh. I’m editing my whole tumblr. I know I said I’d get rid of it, but I suppose I’ll keep it. I read a really cool article online about copyright infringement, and although the pictures I had before I’m sure the artists wouldn’t mind me promoting, it made me think twice, I decided to stay on the safe side (yeah old granny) and simply not post them at all. Of course that’s primarily what Tumblr is about—not illegal activity of course, but you know, sharing cool stuff. And let me say, there are some talented people out there. But, although my intentions weren’t to make a profit on someone’s work, I’d rather steer clear from it for now. If not indefinitely on Tumblr. It’s actually a really good link, I encourage others to read it. It was written by a lawyer (well supposedly) who did their research and broke down some ideas from a website called Pininterest. If anyone uses it, this might be of interest to read. Okay, well, enough of my ranting, I’ll post the cute post from way back when :)

By the way, here is the link: http://ddkportraits.com/2012/02/why-i-tearfully-deleted-my-pinterest-inspiration-boards/

LAB

Don’t get me wrong here, I love biology. And it’s just getting better and better as the days roll by. It’s just, the nastiness of it gets to me sometimes. Let me illustrate my point:

DISSECTION

Not a big deal right? WRONG. I purposely avoided it all throughout high school, and now in college I have no choice. It’s mandatory, and if I don’t like it, I can choose another major. So my first experience dissecting was in a nice, upheld, new lab. I didn’t have to deal with a nasty rat, or pig, or cat. Nope, I got to open up a squid. Pretty cool huh? I thought so, but hey, the smell? Dear Lord, it was absolutely nauseating. But still, pretty cool. I kind of like looking at the organs, seeing the animal, it’s just the JUICE and the SMELL of the animal, when it gets on my notebook, or on my clothes, or (worst of all) IN MY HAIR. Gah. No, just no. I had to take a shower and scrub myself clean after that.

But today was pretty cool, I got up at about 645, to get to lab at 830. This was my second dissection, and I was kind of pumped because we were going to look at sharks! How cool is that? So, I kind of missed the whole rat thing. I heard the last time in lab that they smelled less, so when I walked into lab today and heard “We’re gonna be dissecting rats” I thought, “Well, at least they aren’t too stinky”. Well, the darn rat made up for it in other ways. It was filled with “red dye” that looked like blood, and we had to pour it out on our tray (ew) and change the paper towels underneath it because, it was so messy. I figured I might as well learn, and I asked my lab partner if I could open up the rat. So I did, and he did too. We took turns cutting her open. It was a girl, and she had some weird thing where she was missing her left lung, and her right lung was spotted with white stuff. We think she had lung cancer or something, I thought maybe it was some bacterial thing, which got me worried because I was breathing it in… But what can you do. The professors would guess that last. >.<

So, then we were looking for her left and right ventricle, which are located near (in the area of) the heart. “Odd. Her heart… Wait, isn’t that her heart?” “No, it doesn’t look like a heart. I think it’s right here” “That little thing? Her liver is bigger than that!” “Yeah, I think so.” “So… that’s her heart” “Yeah” I then realized: “Wait. It’s not on her left. Her heart, if that’s her heart, it’s on the wrong side. It’s supposed to be on the left side” I knew this from my cloning and biotechnology class where our teacher taught us that we’ve evolved (very consistently from species to species) that our hearts reside on the left side. So I asked my professor. We’ll at that point we were both bamboozled, so we both asked together.

“Okay, so what is that structure covering the heart?” I looked confused. I had no idea what that spotted thing was. “Think, you have it too” I looked at him blankly. “It’s the lungs. Oh, wait a minute. She’s missing a lung.” I never would have guessed that anyway… Our lungs are in the back, not covering our heart! Then he invited another professor, together surprised, our TA (teaching assistant too). She was the one who noticed the spots on the left lung. The rat also had a mass, and a little bit of the lung above. So it could have been (according to another professor) a developmental error, or cancer. Our professor thought it was cancer, my lab partner and I thought it was a tumor (the mass underneath) and that the rat maybe had some bacterial infection or something nasty with the lungs. Which, again, made me paranoid to be touching it, inhaling it, and getting it’s juice (accidentally) in my hair. Oh well. The things we do for science right?

So that was cool, I was pretty excited to have an interesting rat that the professors were curious to look at. I told my bio lecture teacher, a really sweet lady that likes to do marathons, and is crazy smart. She wanted to see our rat, but I told her we had already bagged her up and put her away. “Okay, I’ll take a look later”. She went back eagerly to her shark.

So, after that, we took a look at a dissected shark. We didn’t dissect anything after that. It’d be too much cleaning and too time consuming. We passed our rat test, naming the parts. We then proceeded to quizzing each other on the shark parts, the frog parts, and the parts of the turtle. Which brought me to an interesting conclusion about life. We are all so similar! We have many organs in common, they look just the same too! It’s just they are in different sizes or in different locations. Each of the animals had a liver, and the shark, boy oh boy, it had a humungous liver. It helps it stay afloat. And let me tell you, the urinary bladder of a rat, is teeny tiny. I was surprised. The insides of a turtle are cool, they look organized, and neat. Unlike that of a frog, which has crazy guts. Its intestines are everywhere. It looks like a hot mess haha. So yeah, it was cool. It’s just it sucks when you can catch something from a dirty rat (no offense Mr. excuse me, Ms. Rat) and it gets all over you. My friend touched the dang rat with his bare hands! AH! So nasty! But, he only touched the tail. He really liked it, said it felt cool lol. Anyways, I think it’s a cool story to tell, and interesting too. I think I’d enjoy so much more if I didn’t have to move around to breathe, hold my breath, and then look at the thing. And be paranoid about cleanliness. Otherwise, I’d love it! 

Wow, that was longer than I expected. :P

-She Dances Love

I had to share this video with everyone. so beautiful. it really helps, don’t ask-just listen

OKAY… SO A FEW THINGS…

1. The Hunger Games is friggin awesome

2. Don’t sweat over a guy shoot. Ugh, back to the old me. Gotta fight for my heart. And that’s the way it should be. Don’t surrender your heart when the other person doesn’t reciprocate. That’s just dumb. It hurts you and they don’t care. Have a little pride and forget them.

3. Swimming is very relaxing

4. Chicken Shu Mai is delicious

5. I learned that you should not chase after a guy one. Two, you’re the one they should be crazy to talk to. End of story. 

6. The Hunger Games was flippin awesome

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Faded From the Winter-Iron and Wine

Resurrection Fern- Iron and Wine <3

One of my all time favorites.

wow, watching some great movies that the actors’ humility makes me want to feel humble too! it makes me wonder the influence of societal pressure. where that comes from. deviation from one thought to another, how that threatens another. whomever has the strongest way of thinking? it’s interesting. i’m afraid of focusing too hard for fear of thinking myself to be great, however being comfortable might be not so good either. 

i wonder why my brain shifts so much in thought. i will wait, and be cautious. 

Be at peace with yourself